...Or soul fulfillment. ...Which ever way you want to look at it, it's not usually something that any one of us really wants to delve into. Why? ...Because after all, it is one of the scariest things we can do. No one wants to fail, and Heaven forbid that we fail at that which is meant to really make us feel nurtured and whole. If we have but one chance to achieve personal success and we miss it, what then? Do we fall into a Black Hole of the Universe and disappear into a Void of Nothingness because that's where all failed humans go? Is it a sort of Hell where everyone floats about in suspended animation with a dull stupid look on their face as if they were about to say something but forgot what it was?
I shudder to think of it! But if you do think of it, doesn't it feel as if that is where we are and what we do if we DON'T pursue our dreams and fulfill our souls?
There's nothing like going through life, passing Middle Ages and getting into the "Senior" category and still you don't really know what you want to be when you grow up. In my case, I just enjoyed doing so many things that I haven't been able to decide. So, the other day I made myself one of "those" lists and wrote down all the things I like that could be considered my Artisan ID. In case you are head-scratching now, that's when you can be exposed to a created piece and know who did it. Whether it is music or art or a fashion style, you just know who created it. That's what I have been trying to figure out for months now. However, even the list didn't help much to clarify my own definition, but the following morning whilst showering, I was hit with one of those thoughts that often come while I am relaxing and letting the hot water pour over me. Why had I never thought of this in relation to my wardrobe? My sewing over the decades has really defined me. I know exactly what styles I like and will wear, and when I applied that same criteria to the jewelry making, my brain lit up like the fireworks on July 4th. I have been excited about discovering myself ever since!
Inspiration hit me then too. After looking over my boards on Pinterest for a few hours, I started to get ideas on what I wanted to put together, and here is what happened....
With every end of the month I take inventory and ask myself what I most want to accomplish before the next month sets in. It's about completion and feeling good about myself. March winds seemed to blow hard on us symbolically here and brought chaos and changes that were not expected. Even though last weeks Bad Business was a nightmare, it held within it the opportunity to spend longer moments with my passion. Interrupted too often with endless aggravations, concentrating on taxes was out of the question. So, I worked on jewelry. Not only did it keep me calmer and more in control, but it was possible to finish a piece I began several weeks ago.
I have been lusting over the idea of a lime green bracelet for ages and this little birdie sang an inspirational song to me. I can hardly believe that I created this piece because it is so very different from anything I have ever done to date. I used new skills that I picked up in Stephanie LeBaron Lee's Homesteaders Metalsmithing e-course. There was such a wealth of information in it that I have barely touched the surface yet. Just get me through taxes and will I ever have fun!!!